On the positive side, it looks like you exercised a degree of good judgment at a critical time and didn't submit to summit fever. To Anton's point, however, I agree that this sounds like you bit off a bit more than you can chew. Learning skills for the first time should be done in a safe controlled environment - this is obvious. I can climb 5.11 and I still get jitters on certain class 3 sections, let alone class 4. I would work up more of the skills before attempting a peak that has literally killed several people.
